Tuesday, December 16, 2014

To My Future Better Self...

Despite spending the whole night looking at the ceiling, I haven't felt as awake as how I am feeling right now. The year of 2014 is ending really soon, I do not have any ambitious resolution to make for the coming year, just hoping that bygones be bygones. Big decision was made this year, indicated the end of something, as well as the beginning of that something. Surprisingly I am coping this better that   in my expectation. If this were to happen in years back, I guess I would have handled matters differently. 

What is keeping me calm now is, I am certain that I am on the right track. I have chosen one path to walk on, but that does not mean that that's the only path, I might switch to another if one day the original path is no longer suitable to be continue walking on. No matter how the outcome turns out to be, I know I will lose nothing and I am afraid of nothing. Instead, I shall be thankful because I will be turning to a matured independent person with a stronger soul. Every drop of my tear and sweat will not go wasted just like that, it resembles the effort and determination I put on my personal growth. Throughout the process, I taught myself how to think, react and talk to people. 

My favorite book that I read in 2014 is "Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage" by Haruki Murakami. I hope I can finish his other long fictions such as "Dance Dance Dance" and "Kafka on the Shore" in 2015. 

1 comment:

淑玲 said...

OMG, I think we are having the same thing there. That personal growth thing.

"I know I will lose nothing and I am afraid of nothing"

Let's do this. To us, the soul we are nurturing.